Saturday, April 12, 2008

Starting my new journey soon....


It had been two months, nearly two months, I had been living life as a Doctor not working in the hospital. Two months of holiday from Hospital life, two months full of events, two months of changing phases...Two month before I start my new journey...

By less than 48 hours, I'm gonna start my new chapter of life. The pediatric master life,"the entrance" I had been talking about previously. I am now at the entrance, I got the key in my hand, the date of the journey had been schedule on this 14 April 2008...the only thing left is for me to be there and start the journey.

Am I ready..? Hard to answer, but I guess, I am. I believe I am. As there is no other thing for me to be scared of, nothing for me to look back. I am, insyallah, ready to be in the journey with HIS Almighty will's.

The new title, new responsibility, new perspective of life..a revolution that I always hope it happened. And Allah had always knows what best for everything, nothing more I can say, just to thank HIM for every single thing in life....

With lot of prayers, I hope..the journey will be a smooth memorable enjoyable blessed one..and Allah knows best...

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

Losing my sense of taste


It happened nearly a week ago...
Friday morning ....to be exact 4 April 2008..
The day..I lost my taste...

"Zarul...peel fresh ni rosak ker..?"..."Nope..okay jer.."
Yet only a day after that I realized ....I lost my taste....

I barely remember what happened, but the even started morning of Friday..
"Li, li kat mana?Jom breakfast kat Ibrahim Maju...Mak baru amik Tok De",..mak called at 7 am, knowing I just finish my Locum in Shamsiah. So i drove there, and on arrival the Roti Telur with teh o ais limau already there, ordered earlier by Mak. As i having it, I complained.."Banyaknyer bawang dia...berketul ketul lak tuh..,"...while I eagerly throwing out bulk of bawang the mamak put in my roti telur bawang. I blamed the "too many" onion for the unexplained taste of both roti canai and my drink.

That was the day, I went to Penang. As we make our first stop in the Petrol station, and me topping up the TAG, I smelled a tempting aroma. As I looked around, my eyes caught the waffle station. Without second thought, I ordered,Waffle with butter and Strawberry jam....but it was a turn off.."Apa orang buat waffle tasteless macam nih..tawar hawar.."...complaining while forcing the "poor" zarul to finish all of it..Not knowing..I was the poor guy..

Everything turned out to be out of taste since then.."Nasi ayam macam gam...dah laa ayam macam rebus habis habisan baru panggang".."Lai Chee Kang tak manis langsung.."..."Hmm...the jam tak manis..." .."Nasi kandar sotong dia macam blunt.."..."Pisang dia lonyer...nampak sedap..tapi tak manis.."....everything suddenly not perfect....

The reality only striked me when i drank the peel fresh. Hmm, why it taste so blunt...? Tak manis langsung..masam pun takder...At that moment, only I realized, all the tasteless food was my bad.. Not the chef...From that moment on, my view on food and taste, started to be different...

The plain water is so scary, as it is the best drink I ever taste. Chocholate just taste nothing, reminded me of block solid hard fat. I remembered how I opened the Kit Kat and trying hard to savour the taste of it, only to be disappointed. A spoonful of honey taste like a spoonful of gum. Kurma, feel like tasteless dried unsweetened gum. Crossaint like layered of paper. By then, I stopped tasting all that good food, so I don't have that second thought to hate it...

The cause of it..I'm not sure. Mak thinks it due to some radiation, a UV light or my Bluetooh earphone. Kak Ijah thinks is due to some sort of allergy reaction, I got photosensitivity rash, my basophil and CRP are high. The other thinks due to infection and flu, Ultrasound emission, some come out with theory of not being well....Honestly, i'm not sure...

Kak Ina wondered..."tak rasa macam mana..?"...Actually it is hard to explained. The first stage was worst...I barely taste anything except for maybe bitter a bit. Yet, I guess, I hope... it getting better, as now, I do feel sour in my mouth all the time....even plain water taste sour...

Yet during this time, I learn a lot of thing, the ability to appreciate. I tend to emphasize the texture and the consistency of the food. Started to think about the taste, and how it was cooked. Trying to remember how the food taste like....Trying to get back to the memories of taste that I usually took for granted....

Ya Allah, I really pray hard it gonna be temporary and the taste will come back...because I learn my lesson...and believe me...Always bersyukur with small things that Allah gave us...such as this wonderful miraculous sense of taste...Alhamdulillah...

Sempurna...You're perfect..


I always hear people say..
"There's no such thing as a perfect person..."
"..but there is such a thing ...as a person who's perfect for each other.."

Kau begitu sempurna..
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku..
Akan Selalu memujamu....

Di setiap langkahku..
Ku kan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ..ku akan bisa

Kau gengam tanganku...
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh..
Kau bisikkan kata..
dan hapus semua sesalku....

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku...lengkapi diriku
Oh Sayangku..kau begitu...
Sempurna....